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Finding Adi Da > Chris Tong

Finding the Divine In Person
and Waking Up From the Dream

Chris Tong

Chris TongChris Tong has been a devotee of Adi Da Samraj since 1989. He is one of the founders of this website. You can read his biographical information in the About Us section.

Chris Tong's book about how Adi Da found him (when he was a baby) and drew him into relationship with the Divine over the decades that followed, and the many miracles that occurred along the way. Chris describes his adventures with the Devotional Prayer of Changes, a spiritual means Adi Da has given His devotees for making (miraculous) changes in their lives. He tells of his service to the Adidam Mission (from 1989 to the present), and his conversation with Adi Da in 1995 about how the Adidam Mission can reach everyone on the planet. He closes the book with useful lessons he has learned for fruitful practice of the Way of Adidam.

This book has the following parts:

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1. My Earliest Darshan

Any story of my relationship with Adi Da must begin with the earliest time He Graced me with His Darshan. It was the fall of 1957. I was only a few months old, and Adi Da was 17 or 18 — he was taking an undergraduate math class with my mother, who was a professor at Columbia University.


2. The Happiest Moment of My Early Life

The happiest moment of my early life occurred in 1970 (when I was thirteen). One day, an overwhelming Revelation of the inherent Happiness of Reality washed over me. It would only be years later that I would make the connection that the day I had that Revelation — September 10, 1970 — was the day my Spiritual Master, Adi Da Samraj, re-Awakened to Divine Enlightenment.

3. "You Become My Devotee in Your Past As Well As in the Present"

One of the most curious things about the story I've been telling is how Adi Da appears in it from the very beginning and then ongoing, even long before I "knew" of Him or became His devotee. He attended the class my mother was teaching at Columbia University; I first met Him in His human form when I was just a baby. Then, when I was thirteen, He gifted me with His Revelation of Perfect Happiness on the day of His Divine Re-Awakening (September 10, 1970). Now I'll tell the story of how I ended up going to the same university He went to: Columbia University.


4. A Crisis of Faith

As an undergraduate student at Columbia University, I was exposed to a great variety of new influences — the ones considered most influential in shaping "Western civilization"... from the ancient Greek writers, to Hobbes, Hegel, Darwin, Marx, and Freud. While a few of these sources (for example, St. Augustine and Dante) were religious, most were materialistic in their philosophy and secular in their focus, and the fact that all of these new viewpoints seemed to have a grain of truth to them shattered the religious simplicity of my childhood.


5. A Greater-Than-Material Universe

Almost every story you read about how devotees found Adi Da includes events in their early life (before becoming Adi Da's devotee) that demonstrated to them that there was more to reality than just the material universe as it is conventionally understood. At some point before they became a devotee, each person became open (to some degree) to the greater-than-material universe. I'll now describe a few of those transformational events in my life, a veritable potpourri that includes telekinesis, astral projection, cessation of breathing, a UFO encounter, contact with ghosts, angels, and other non-material beings, and an expanded consciousness that saved my life.


6. The Psycho-Physical Universe: A Closer Look

In the last chapter, I relayed some personal experiences showing different facets of the greater-than-material universe we live in. A recent experience got me reflecting on the nature of the universe that underlies all those stories. So first I'll share that experience — a magical synchronicity that was engineered by a dreamlike, psycho-physical universe with a wicked sense of humor! Then I'll spend the rest of this chapter exploring how such an event could occur (introducing some useful concepts), before proceeding with the rest of my story.

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7. Finding My Guru

In 1983, I was working toward my Ph.D. at Stanford University. Adi Da's books were in the spiritual literature section of virtually every bookstore in northern California. Through that Graceful means, I was able to find and read His book, The Dreaded Gom-Boo. This was what I had been groping for, in the dark, for years — but had only been finding little grains of "truth" here and there, which I had tried to piece together, like a jigsaw puzzle, into a meaningful portrait of the nature of reality. Suddenly, here was the entire Truth, given all at once! The time between 1983 (when I discovered Adi Da's teaching) and 1989 (when I became His devotee) was a period of intensive preparation for me. I studied Adi Da's teaching in depth. And a lot of what He wrote about was being shown to me in my life. In retrospect, it was obviously His Grace (flowing to me because I was placing my attention on Him and His Word) that was granting me these revelations. I'll next talk about three of the subjects in Adi Da's teaching that were revealed in my actual life during this final period of preparation: feeling without limitation, positive disillusionment, and synchronicity.

8. Feeling Without Limitation

After getting my Ph.D., I became a professor of Computer Science (specializing in Artificial Intelligence) at Rutgers University in New Jersey, in 1984. I spent the next few years preparing to become Adi Da's devotee. I studied His teaching in depth. And a lot of what He wrote about was being revealed to me during this time. In this section, I'll tell how His teaching about "feeling without limitation" demonstrated itself in my life.



9. Positive Disillusionment

To actually become Adi Da's devotee and fully take up the Way of Adidam, one also has to go through a process Adi Da calls "positive disillusionment". We are born here with karmic patterns and forces that powerfully drive us to continue in our ordinary destiny, lifetime after lifetime. In order to participate in a Greater Destiny, we must not only find the Guru, who makes such a Greater Destiny available; we must also become dis-illusioned with our ordinary destiny and whatever keeps attracting (and binding) us to it. I remember a particular moment which epitomized that process of positive disillusionment in my own life.


10. The Summer of Synchronicity

In the summer of 1989, Adi Da Gracefully gave me an extraordinary Revelation about the nature of Reality as a Unity that transcends the apparent split between the subjective and the objective. . . through numerous, amazing occurrences of synchronicity.


11. Becoming Adi Da's Devotee: The Eternal Relationship

At last, at the end of the summer in 1989, I became Adi Da's devotee, in a formal initiation ceremony in New York City (Brooklyn) in which I felt His Spiritual Force crashing down on my head and through my body with great power.


12. Feeling With the Heart

The practitioner of the Way of Adidam regularly makes use of a primary instrument or 'muscle': the capability to feel with the heart. I write about how this capability developed in my case. This capability would soon be put to good use, as I describe in the next chapter.


13. The Devotee Feeds the Guru, and the Guru Feeds the Devotee

In July, 1991, I thought I was going on a ten-day retreat at the Mountain Of Attention Sanctuary (in Northern California) — my first such retreat at one of Adidam's Empowered Sanctuaries. Little did I know what was really in store for me! After my retreat at the Mountain Of Attention, I would be headed for Adi Da Samrajashram, the Fijian island of Naitauba, to be in my Guru's physical company.


14. Club Rat

On July 6, 1992, Adi Da led a gathering He called "Club Rat", a most unusual evening! During Club Rat, He used music to open my heart.


15. No Pity For Him!

One night, in December 1992, at Adi Da Samrajashram, Adi Da Gracefully and permanently relieved me of all self-pity. I learned many lessons from that miraculous, karma-dissolving gift.


16. Dancing For Happiness Without Thinking

I went on retreat to Adi Da Samrajashram in late 1993. One of the female devotees on retreat started to act out in a rather dramatic way: she told Adi Da she wanted to "fuck every man on the island". Adi Da spontaneously created a "teachable moment" out of her dramatization, by calling for some man to dance with this woman, but without thoughts of sex — indeed, without any thought, simply Happy in Him, and dancing for Happiness only. Here's what happened!


17. Restored To Perfect Happiness

One night when I was with Adi Da at Adi Da Samrajashram, I suddenly had a terrible vision, the fabrication of "doubt-mind": all I could see was a roomful of apparent cult members, all following their apparently megalomanical leader. And then a miracle occurred: Adi Da revealed Himself to Me to be the Divine. The disturbing vision vanished in an instant, and all my doubts were dissolved in Adi Da's Divine State of Perfect Happiness.


18. Passing Adi Da's Tests and Educating the Entire World

One of the most challenging transitions I have ever undergone was — in response to Adi Da's personal invitation — the transition (in 1994) from a more conventional, worldly life (as a university professor and world leader in Artificial Intelligence, and as someone with a wonderful, loving intimate partner) to a life dedicated to, and concentrated in, serving my Spiritual Master's Divine Work. After I had settled in at the Mountain Of Attention Sanctuary, Adi Da acknowledged that I was "passing His tests", even at the same time He revealed His larger purpose for me: "Does he know that he is now responsible for the education of the six billion?"


19. Composing Music for The Mummery Book

In January, 1995, while on retreat at Adi Da Samrajashram, I was asked to compose the music for a performance of Adi Da's The Mummery Book — and Adi Da would be in the audience. I had four hours of music to compose, and only four days to do it! Here is the story of how that was accomplished. I also describe how, at one point, Adi Da read my mind and set my heart free, with the surgical precision that comes from being the Heart-Master of His devotees.


20. Upon This Rock, I Will Build My Church

A personal story (from 1996) about the importance of recognition of Adi Da as the Divine to the survival and flourishing of Adidam.


21. Lulu's Back In Town

My dear cat friend Lulu was a great being, appearing in a little body, bringing us great joy very often. In this section, I tell of some extraordinary events that occurred after her passing in 2019.


22. More Moments with Adi Da

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23. Surrendered at the Divine Heart-Master's Feet

I will end Part I of my book with the most sacred event of my life, which took place on December 24, 1994 (the eve of Danavira Mela): the extraordinary Grace of holding Adi Da's Feet (traditionally considered the most sacred part of the Spiritual Transmission Master's body) for half an hour, at the end of which I disappeared.


In the Introduction, I estimated that 95% of all spiritual seekers are spiritual materialists: they "use" spirituality and spiritual resources (the Law of Attraction, prayer, etc.) for non-spiritual (material) ends: better relationships; improved health; more wealth, power, or fame; etc. But because their focus is exclusively material, their gains are largely lost at the time of the death of their physical body. In contrast, the focus of the remaining 5% of spiritual seekers is a Spiritual Realization capable of persisting beyond death: a greater connection with a greater-than-material dimension or the ability to stably reside in one of those greater-than-material dimensions. In the Way of Adidam, the ultimate end is God-Realization: the complete Awakening from all limited dimensions, even spiritual ones.

The Devotional Prayer of Changes is an extraordinary gift given to devotees by Adi Da, enabling us to make use of His Divine Power to make miraculous changes (including ones that better our material lives, like the Law of Attraction) in the dream that is the universe, even as our spiritual practice focuses on Waking Up from the dream altogether.

My own adventures with using the Devotional Prayer of Changes to produce miracles will be the focus of the first six chapters in this part. I'll write about:

The final chapter in this Part will summarize some of the lessons learned about how to engage this Prayer effectively.

1. A Facility for Healing Computers

During the period from 1995 through 1997, I was a member of the Dasya Mandala, Adi Da's "travelling party", that accompanied Him wherever He went. During that time, we travelled to Hawaii, Naitaiba, the East Coast of the United States, and the Mountain Of Attention. One thing I became aware of rather quickly, during this extended time in Adi Da's physical Company, was that computers around Him seemed to go on the fritz very often. He Himself confirmed that this was so, but at the same time, He also required us (those travelling with Him) to compensate for it! And so that was how I began developing an unusual "siddhi" (spiritual power) for "healing" computers.


2. Curing Prostate Cancer

In December, 2016, I learned that I had prostate cancer. Discovering I had "cancer" (the word itself is terrifying, and has all kinds of negative associations) really put me through it — facing my mortality, experiencing my fear of death very fully, etc. I had friends who had died of prostate cancer. But the news also immediately led me to explore alternative health modalities for addressing the cancer, as well as surgical removal of my prostate. When a recurrence of the cancer occurred two years after surgery, I started engaging the Devotional Prayer of Changes very intensively.


3. Stopping a Bout of Sudden Aging

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4. Dissolving an $87,000 Debt with the IRS

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5. A Facility for Redirecting Thunderstorms

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6. Getting My Music on Taylor Swift's YouTube Channel In Front of Her 40 Million Followers (and Her)

I've been a singer and songwriter since I was 17. In this chapter, I describe how I engaged the Devotional Prayer of Changes for "high-powered musical connections". The startling result of this prayer was that, in November, 2020, one of my songs ending up on Taylor Swift's YouTube channel for half a day, in front of her 40 million followers (and her). I end this chapter with some thoughts on how the right pop song could greatly serve the Adidam Mission.


7. Lessons Learned

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A major part of a devotee's practice of the Way of Adidam is finding an effective way to serve Adi Da's great Work of Liberating and Enlightening all beings. Much of my service has been in assisting the Adidam Mission, whose purpose is to help all people become aware of and fully appreciate Adi Da's Offering of Divine Enlightenment — and help some of those appreciative people become Adi Da's devotees and take up the Way of Adidam, so they actually can Realize Divine Enlightenment. So the Adidam Mission, and my service to the Adidam Mission, will be the focus of the five chapters in this Part.

1. Lessons From the Face-To-Face Mission

From the time I became Adi Da's devotee (in August, 1989) to when I moved to the Mountain Of Attention (in late 1994), I threw myself into serving the Adidam Mission through face-to-face missionary work. During that time, I was still a professor at Rutgers University in New Jersey. There was a small Adidam community in New York City, but a larger community in the Boston area. I began associating regularly with the Adidam New England community, making the four-hour drive, up and back, each weekend. While this was rather grueling, it also allowed me to expand the geographical area of the Mission work I was doing. From 1989 through 1994, I put together many workshops. One benefit of my commuting back and forth between Massachusetts and New Jersey was that I could try out a workshop in Massachusetts on the weekend; and then offer a refined version of the same workshop in New York City, the next weekend.


2. The Adidam Web Mission

I became aware of the Web in 1993. At the time, I was still a professor of Computer Science (specializing in Artificial Intelligence) at Rutgers University in New Jersey. At that point, the Web had only been in existence for a couple of years, and there were only about two thousand websites in existence in the entire world. But I instantly grasped the immense potential of websites for communicating Adi Da's Offering to the entire world.


3. New Doors Open

In early 1997, my computer stopped working. For the next three months, I worked off of borrowed computers and the generosity of devotee friends. My colleagues in the Adidam Institution assured me they'd find the resources to purchase a new computer. But the financial needs associated with creating a new spiritual tradition are immense, and cover many different areas. And so, three months went by, and I still was without a computer. This was a difficult challenge — here I was, the head of Adi Da's Web Mission, and I had no computer!


4. The Miraculous Mission: What Kind of Magic Is It?

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5. How To "Tell Everyone I Am Here" — Educating the Eight Billion

Adi Da's overarching admonition for the Adidam Mission is: "Tell everyone I Am here." He is here for everyone, because God-Realization — completely awakening from the dream of limited existence — is the ultimate destiny of all beings (whether they awaken in a few years or take billions of years to awaken), and it is the destiny He makes realizable and accessible through the Way of Adidam. This chapter is a deep dive into what form the Adidam Mission must take, in order to actually have a chance at reaching enough of those eight billion to move from being a spiritual tradition still struggling for survival to an established, respected, self-sustaining spiritual tradition, with several hundred thousand to several million members.


So the reason you like hearing stories about Saints and ecstatics is that they are people who do not do what people usually do. You would like to be someone who is doing what people do not ordinarily do. You would like to be in that ecstatic position. Fine! So do it! You have been given the Means. You have had your "consideration". Be an ecstatic, then. That is My Recommendation.  

Avatar Adi Da Samraj
from "The Nameless, Mindless, Thoughtless, Presumptionless,
Knowledgeless Love-Bliss-Current of Existence"
in My "Bright" Form

Parts I and II of this book were full of stories of wondrous events and interactions and ecstatic states of being that were made possible by being in Avatar Adi Da Samraj's Divine Company both during His human lifetime and after. Most of these were a direct consequence of my practice of the Way of Adidam. So the focus of the chapters in this Part will be useful concepts and lessons learned regarding fruitful practice of the Way of Adidam:

  1. The Breakthrough of the Ultimate Dimension into Our Universe
  2. The Gift from a Million Years in the Future
  3. Waking Up From the Dream: The Gorilla Sermon
  4. Absorbed in the Divine Domain: The Great Samadhi of Radical Devotion
  5. Turning Every Moment into God-Communion
  6. Living the Lesson of Life
  7. Positive Disillusionment Revisited
  8. The Bangles of the Goddess: The Trap of the Lesser Samadhis
  9. Covering "the Whole Guy": Catching All Lapses in Radical Devotion
  10. "What Is Your Conclusion About Reality?": Transforming Your Belief System
  11. Setting Aside the Conceptual Mind
  12. Progressing from Graceful Release of the self-Contraction to Self-Understanding
  13. Love-Bliss: Love is Happiness Radiated Outward
  14. Integration: Full Maturity in the Third Stage of Life
  15. More Than Three Strikes Against Us: The Challenge of the Practice
1. The Breakthrough of the Ultimate Dimension into Our Universe


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Adidam Ruchiradam — As It Truly Is — Is the Proclamation to all beings of the Breakthrough of the Divine "Bright" Spherical Self-Domain into the cosmic domain. 

Avatar Adi Da Samraj, "The Boundless Self-Confession"
Part 24, Volume 7, The Aletheon
2. The Gift from a Million Years in the Future

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3. Waking Up From the Dream: The Gorilla Sermon

On June 22, 1972, Adi Da gave one of his earliest and most useful metaphors for the process of Divine Enlightenment in His talk, "The Gorilla Sermon":


I am like the sunlight in the morning. I intensify the light of morning until you awaken. Until the light awakens a person, even the Light of Consciousness Itself, the person continues to dream, tries to survive within the dream, manipulates himself or herself within the dream, pursues all kinds of goals, searches, none of which Awaken you. All ordinary means only console a person and distract him or her within the dream. . . But when you wake up in the morning, the gorilla that was just about to bite off your head loses all significance. All the implications of the dream are already undone in one who is awake. It no longer has any real significance, it no longer has any implication for life. It no longer is a genuine threat to life. It no longer is anything except that appearance. And the only difference is that you are awake. Nothing has been done to the dream itself. 

Avatar Adi Da Samraj, "The Gorilla Sermon", My "Bright" Word
4. Absorbed in the Divine Domain: The Great Samadhi of Radical Devotion

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5. Turning Every Moment into God-Communion

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6. Living the Lesson of Life

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7. Positive Disillusionment Revisited

  • Not settling for a plateau in practice
  • The Adidam Reality principle: long-term God-Communion versus short-term pleasure

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8. The Bangles of the Goddess: The Trap of the Lesser Samadhis

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9. Covering "the Whole Guy": Catching All Lapses in Radical Devotion

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10. "What Is Your Conclusion About Reality?": Transforming Your Belief System

What is your conclusion about Reality, your actual present-time presumption about Reality? Do you presume Reality Is Divine — or not? The question is important, because your conclusion about Reality is operative in every dimension of your life. . . That conclusion — whatever it is — is determining your life, moment to moment, and even now.

The conclusion that the Divine is Real is the result of conversion, not the result of a mere intellectual process. If it is to be effective in your life, however, it must become a conviction in the mind, and in every function altogether, in your disposition altogether. To be governed by the presumption of the Divine means you have come to the conclusion about reality that it is arising in Real (Acausal) God and is to be surrendered in Real (Acausal) God. Life, then, is about Real-God-Realization and not about conditions. Therefore, the important matter is this conversion, or your conclusion about Reality.  

Avatar Adi Da Samraj, "The In-Depth Exercise of Reality-Intelligence"
in Volume 2, Part Eight,The Aletheon

It seems remarkable to Me that human beings can be feeling so uncomfortable fundamentally in their depth, so uncomfortable about being physically alive that they are so willing to devote themselves entirely to just being an organism, knowing its mortality, its limitations, and all the rest. It's remarkable.

It must be being heavily propagandized by something or other that you would make that choice given an option, given the eternal option. But if you're deprived of the knowledge of it, the knowledge of this Revelation and this practice, you won't know any better.

So the Revelation had to be made. But that's been done, and now you have to do the practice. And the practice is not at all about being content or driven to merely fulfill the body. It's about ego-transcendence, and therefore it's about transcendence of everything.

Being aware of the real nature of the body is like being aware of the self-contraction. It's itself a terrible knot, in itself a horrific condition. That's why people find all kinds of ways to desensitize themselves to it, forget about it, or be relieved of some kind of stress all the time, because you do know the nature of the body, and you are afraid of it.

You feel trapped in it.

You don't know that there is a way to be free.

But having found out about that from Me, you have to practice and actually Realize what there is to be Realized. Otherwise, you're always consenting to be the organism, consenting to be its fate, its possibilities in every moment, not a lot different from poor little beings in the forest who are prey to a lot of others.

The machine is so vulnerable, and ultimately mortal, how can one be content with it?

How can one be willing to live an ordinary life?  

Avatar Adi Da Samraj

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11. Setting Aside the Conceptual Mind

Because, through Avatar Adi Da's Grace, I did develop the capability to set aside the conceptual mind (a key development in the listening/hearing process), I'll "pass the Prasad", and say a little more about this, to emphasize that it is very possible (especially for devotees of Adi Da), and to encourage others to do the same.


12. Progressing from Graceful Release of the self-Contraction to Self-Understanding

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13. Love-Bliss: Love is Happiness Radiated Outward

The essential principle of spiritual life is unobstructed feeling-attention via all functions, in all relations, under all conditions. That principle is to be realized in all the complicated mechanics of your relationships and in all the esoteric developments of the practice that may be given to you.

Love is the principle, but love is not what you are living. You are weak in that force of feeling-attention because you are subject to the conditions outside you.

You basically feel unloved, unable to depend on love. You are always reacting to the universe as a great something in which you are not loved, always protecting yourself from death.

This reaction is the essential learning we must undo in order to become human beings. Spiritual life is not a matter of reading signs about ourselves and going within, through meditative techniques, trying to find the great absorption.

That is Narcissus, whose solution is further isolation.

God-Realization is in the moment, yet it has nothing to do with the conditions that are arising in this moment. They are not it.

God-Realization is to awaken to your true Condition, which is love, Radiance to Infinity, and to live it, not just to believe it, not to depend on it from others, but to be that confidence, that overwhelming bliss, that energy, unthreatened, that is the business of devotees, not the mediocre drama you are telling us about here. 

Avatar Adi Da Samraj

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14. Integration: Full Maturity in the Third Stage of Life

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15. More Than Three Strikes Against Us: The Challenge of the Practice

The entire Way of Truth is immensely difficult and creative. The entire Way is a Sacrifice. The Way of Truth is the only matter of ultimate significance in the life of Man. Let us yield our very bodies and minds into the Reality and Destiny that is both Spirit and Truth.  

Avatar Adi Da Samraj
The Enlightenment of the Whole Body

DEVOTEE: It seems that we are born with three strikes against us.

ADI DA: Yes. That is why you have to get smart down here! A living being arising in the midst of life is automatically the reaction to the preceding action, which is life itself. It is entirely a natural mechanism. If reaction is the only principle of life, it realizes only death. The automatic tendency of organic life is to contract—to become more and more solid, to the point of lifelessness. Whatever is alive begins to die from the moment it makes its appearance. And there are more than three strikes against you. You are already “out”—already, before the strikes.

I have no taste for the usual life. Not that I cannot enjoy some of the qualities of life, but I simply have no taste for this entire affair of suffering and compulsive existence. I see perfectly well what it depends on. I would not choose, on the merits of the experience itself, ever to be born in this human condition again. There is no advantage in it. It does not gain anything. It is just a period of time in which to understand. Apart from that, it has no ultimate value. It never becomes anything more than that.

Human life is not particularly delightful. It is an endless concern, from birth until death. Every minute is suffering of the limited state, or an attempt to break out of it through various kinds of activity, trying to find the answer. From the first moment of born awareness, this life is a question. It seems absurd to be actually existing and, yet, not know what actually existing is, and to spend the entire period of actually existing trying to discover what actually existing is!

This is an insane condition! It is a compulsive tour of unconscious activity—for the most part. If Truth begins to Manifest in life, as life, then It Glorifies life to some degree. But the Glory that Enters life is not that of life itself. It is the Glory of the Fullness of Truth—Which is Manifested as life, Whose modifications are life. The more the life of Truth grows, the more taste for Truth you acquire—not for life apart from (or other than) Truth. When Truth is Most Perfectly Enjoyed, life becomes secondary—perhaps profound, but unnecessary. Your “death” in Truth should precede your physical death by at least a few moments! Otherwise, the tendency to regain this same condition is automatically there.

The Condition That Is Truth is far superior to the limitation that is conditionally manifested existence. Those who live Truth while alive are not glorifying life in and of itself. They are glorifying Truth. When you Enjoy Truth, you are already Free. And if you are Free, what does all of this compulsive limitation have to do with you? If you are Free, you simply live Truth until the moment of death—and beyond.

To be Divinely Outshined in Truth is the ultimate destiny of all who resort to Me most profoundly. I already Know Who you Are. I am already Living with you in another sense—as Real Life, as Love, as Truth. I Know that there is far more to reality than mere physical existence. I look forward to your Most Perfect Divine Enlightenment. But I see that those who are living in the Earth plane are not clear about all of this, not certain of it—rather confused. So I Communicate Truth in as many forms as I can. My Single Impulse is to Relieve you of your presumed life of separateness, to draw you out of darkness into Light.  

Avatar Adi Da Samraj
p. 193, My "Bright" Word

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18 Comments

FEATURED COMMENT:
Beverley G. - Sydney, Australia April 5, 2016 11:50PM

Beautiful story of love, devotion and understanding. Touched my heart deeply!

Albert K. - Berlin, Germany July 26, 2024 4:54PM

Your whole book is a revelation for me, Chris Tong.

Michael L. - North Palm Beach, Florida, United States October 28, 2022 3:53PM

You've had more experiences of an extraordinary kind than any other devotee I know. That fact plus your high level of academic achievement in the fields of science and technology comprise an extremely rare combination. I can almost see your previous incarnation in a spiritual community — perhaps a Tibetan monastery — where you laid the foundation for the current one. And your exegesis on scholarship in Adidam during your present lifetime may have laid the foundation for your next lifetime!

Patti J. - United States June 6, 2021 1:55PM

Heartbreaking — thank you, Chris.

Cheryl B. - Guelph, Ontario, Canada October 28, 2020 0:52AM

Thanks for your service and incredible leelas.

Matthew N. - Los Angeles, California, United States October 28, 2020 0:48AM

Thank you for all your devotion & service, Chris - beautiful. This Leela is delightful and really serves the heart-intimacy and Divinely mutual feeding process of true devotion, evokes the ecstasy of His own Leela in my life too.

Mariana G. - United States October 28, 2020 0:44AM

This is the most beautiful Leela I have read. It has touched my heart.

David G. - Austria June 10, 2019 9:29AM

QUITE the story!

Michael L. - North Palm Beach, Florida, United States June 6, 2019 5:20PM

Beautiful story! He is Joy and the reason for it!

Steven S. - MIddletown, California, United States April 3, 2016 0:05AM

Quite an extraordinary story. You don't have to be a devotee of Adi Da's to appreciate this.

peter - cheltenham, United Kingdom February 10, 2014 6:30PM

Thank you, Chris. So inspirational, and so very, very honest, full of integrity and sensitivity to That Relationship that embraces All and all.

Maria Rosino - La Veta, CO, United States January 14, 2014 7:02AM

I just finished your beautiful Heart Story with Adi Da, and find tears of gratitude and inspiration falling down my face. I can see now how in very specific times in my life, the Divine Heart Master has been with me all along. I never 'met' Him in person while He was in His bodily form, but now I know more intensely than ever, that He is eternally Here with us ALL and lives in our hearts eternally... Thank you!

M. Wilson - California, United States October 19, 2011 0:14AM

I just read your amazing leela — how beautiful! With all that amazing background, I always remember you playing the harmonium on retreat with Beloved Adi Da in '92, and my having the opportunity to lead chanting. That was very special for me.

Jackie H. - California, United States July 23, 2011 12:02AM

I was so moved by your leela. How wonderful that you received His Darshan as a baby. Truly remarkable conjunction. I love it!!!

Chris Kilgore - Alpharetta, GA, United States January 2, 2011 7:09AM

Thank you so much for such a wonderful, beautiful, heart-breaking-open Leela.

Don - United States December 26, 2010 8:15PM

WOW!! What an incredibly beautiful leela!!

Jim Newcome - United States December 25, 2010 8:55PM

Beautiful leela, Chris. Many thanks.

Max R. - Alabama, United States December 23, 2010 10:18AM

Absolutely beautiful story about the essence of the devotional relationship with Avatar Adi Da Samraj.

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