One evening, on the island of Naitauba in Fiji, I was Graced to
be in a gathering of devotees with our Beloved Guru. He was dancing
around the room, and we were all dancing around with Him. We were
dancing to a song whose refrain focused on the words: "Me
. . . Me." As the singer would sing those words, Adi Da would
point to His own chest, and mouth the words, "Me . . . Me."
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Of course, I knew that our Beloved Guru is the focal point of
our practice, and the very means of our Realization, and that's
what He was humorously indicating, as He pointed to Himself. But
for some reason, in that moment, I suddenly entered into a contracted
vision, where all I could see was a roomful of apparent cult members,
all following their apparently megalomanical leader ecstatically,
with me being the only one not caught up in and going along with
the "delusion". It felt terrible: I had no desire to
have this "vision", but I couldn't do anything about
it. In that moment, it possessed me.
Adi Da instantly perceived where I was at, and just as the music
reached the key line of the refrain again, He looked straight
at me, and shouted: "ME, Tongue, ME!".[1]
The Force of His Spiritual Transmission completely blew "me"
away, and instantly I was restored to His Domain of Perfect Happiness
and Perfect Non-Separateness. All doubt, all questions, all contraction
was gone. It was like when the sun comes out: before and after;
or when you have a moment of doubt in your intimate, but then
her radiance and love toward you in the next moment makes you
realize how unfounded and self-generated (and downright silly)
your doubt was. I saw how I had literally contracted into that
depressed state, and the doubts and questions were a product of
the contraction. I saw how Adi Da had literally Blasted me out
of it, and back into Him, into His State. I was beaming with happiness,
and joyfully returned to dancing around the room with my Beloved
Lord and my friends.
Everyone transmits. All of you are transmitters.
You reinforce these limitations in one another and you transmit
them to one another. Each one of you emits invisible forces
that are locked up in limited messages that reinforce the
same limitations in others . . . Realizers of one or another
degree of Spiritual development likewise by nature spontaneously
Transmit what they are. . . . Since everything and everyone
transmits states of existence, since life, or existence
itself, is participation in transmissions of all kinds,
the best thing you can do is to associate with the greatest
possible Transmission above all. . . . That is the great
rule, the Great Law, the Ultimate principle of the Great
Tradition.
The Spiritual Master is a Transmitter,
an Agency of Transmission, like the Sun. The Sun never sets
and is never changed. The Spiritual Master may appear to
others as the Sun appears in relation to the Earth. Those
people see the Spiritual Master through their own minds,
through circumstances, through all kinds of problems, limitations,
and ordinary human signs. They do not realize the nature
of the Spiritual Master as Adept, as Transmitter. They think
of the Spiritual Master as an ordinary man, and they think
of themselves as people who are inherently incapable of
the Spiritual response. But if you truly understand and
become a practitioner, a devotee, then you understand the
Spiritual Master as Adept. You see the shining perpetually.
You see the Transmission, the Radiant Force of Consciousness
in that person. He or she is not an ordinary person. His
or her body-mind is simply a material focus. But you must
see beyond the local weather that is the Adept's bodily
appearance and circumstance. You must see the Sun.
No amount of intellectual argument could have dissolved that depressed,
doubtful state I had been in. It was literally an Awakening, a
moment of recognition of the Divine, a radical "shift"
to (and re-immersion in) the always already present Divine State,
that did it. And the instant I was no longer in that contracted
state, all my questions and doubts vanished as well. They were
gone, but they also were obviously, utterly irrelevant.
In the Way of Adidam, meditation arises only
in the heart-relationship with Me — only under the conditions
of Truth, already lived. There is Force in such meditation.
For my rightly practicing devotee, meditation is an intense
Fire. It is a marvelous Intelligence, a Brilliance, a Genius,
a Living Force. It is not a pious attempt to quiet your
little thoughts. It blasts the hell out of those thoughts!
From the "Point of View" of the Living Divine Heart
(or Truth Itself, or Reality Itself), there is no concern
for all of these thoughts, all of these dilemmas, all of
this mediocrity of suffering. All of that amounts to nothing.
. . . When Satsang with Me becomes the Principle of your
life, and Truth becomes the form of your meditation, thought
is consumed. Such True Meditation is a Pressure under Which
thoughts cannot survive. Such True meditation is an Intelligence that needs only to observe an obstruction in order for that obstruction to dissolve. This is the process that comes awake in Satsang with Me-not some strategic method, some ego-based remedy.