In 2012, a devotee of Adi Da brought me a copy of The Knee of Listening. This took some courage on the part of the devotee — who knew that I was established teaching Kundalini yoga and was putting on a conference on Kundalini. Having been searching most of my life, I thought I was settled teaching Kundalini yoga. Even so, I still had questions which no spiritual teacher had answered, from the myriad of books I had read.

The Knee Of Listening sat on my table for a few days, while I resisted picking it up. But at last the pull was too strong, and I started to read. . . and all of the questions I had about Kundalini were answered.

That was when I knew that Adi Da Samraj was my spiritual teacher. But I resisted that awareness, because I had so much invested in being a Kundalini yoga teacher and in continuing to teach a technique that would be at odds with what was confirmed by Adi Da (and which I also now intuitively felt was true). So for a while, I resisted becoming Adi Da's devotee; I had loads of reasons why I didn't "need" to be a devotee.

Then one night, I had a dream. I was standing in my kitchen, looking out to sea, and I had a baby on my shoulder. Because of how the baby was positioned, I couldn't see the baby's face, so I leaned back a little to look — and got the shock of my life when I recognised it as the face of Adi Da when He was a baby (the picture of Him sitting in the lotus position on His mat — which is my favourite picture of Him).

I was so shocked that I woke up immediately.

The next day I contacted the Adidam Ashram in London and said that I wanted to become a Third Congregation devotee. I took my vow to become a devotee on 31 August 2014, and I will be going on retreat to Adi Da Samrajashram (the sacred island of Naitauba in Fiji) in July, 2015.

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Finding Adi Da